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Love Me

Why can't I love myself?

I know I care--words I say upset me
I live in rooms, venting, crying
My mind flooded with ways of dying
Hover in aching sadness to touch the cutting edge
Slice my flesh by this anger in my head

Why can't I trust myself?

I could do something beyond sitting here
I'd likely fail, but I could still move
Anything would be better than this nothing,
A nothingness which was forged by something:
A past I should bloody forget

Why do I have constant fear?

I act as if the world will soon end (maybe it will)
Anxiety fills me--sorrowful, perpetually morose
Putting you all into my soul
Unable to separate humanity from me
Plagued by this paradox of insanity
...I just can't shake free

Why do I need you?

I say I don't but really I do
I don't want to need me either
So I purposely reject you
I push you into my bitter words
Then run away to play with my own pain

Why am I alone again?

By myself, here by myself and alone
Feeling these feelings I always know
All alone, I am never going to heal
Yet, it isn't only your love I need
Since your love cannot make me complete

Why can't I love me?

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